Moment of truth in your lies [entries|friends|calendar] Kaleidoscope Eyes [ website | MyyyyyyySpace ] [ userinfo | livejournal userinfo ] [ calendar | livejournal calendar ]

Dear diary, my teen angst bullshit has a body count // I believe it's 6 going on 7 now [17 Nov 2005|11:38pm] [ mood | exhausted ] Well, that subject heading is kind of morbid. Oh well, it's stuck in my head. Name 5 of life's simple pleasures that you like most, then pick 5 people to do the same. Try to be original and creative and not to use things that someone else has already used. Tag 5 people on your list. 1. Having someone tell me I made their day 2. Going to the movies with my sisters, knowing that we finally get along, for the most part 3. Having a best friend that I can tell anything to, no matter how stupid, embarrassing, or dorky and knowing he won't hold it against me 4. Being fortunate enough to be in college 5. Holding my Bella for more than 30 seconds at a time I tag who ever will do this, I'm betting a lot less than 5. I can't remember the last time I wasn't completely and utterly exhausted by 12:30 in the afternoon. I blame it on Bath and Body and working too much. Speak up, dear

Its thoughts like this that catch my troubled head when you're away when I am missing you to death [05 Oct 2005|10:51am] [ mood | distressed ] I feel like this will never end. There is something, a surprise, to look forward to at the end of the week, though. So that's a plus. I hate October almost as much as I hate December and February, which is weird because you'd think October would be worse than those. That's when everything fell apart. Oh well. The next few months are going to be stressful. More than stressful. I hope I can deal with the problems better than I have in the past. Speak up, dear

And I've been waiting for so long to hold you in my arms [08 Sep 2005|09:27am] [ mood | crazy ] So school has been super stressful. On day one of Approaches to Literature we had over 4 hours of home work. Well, I am not sure how much, but I only did 4 hours so far. I still have about 7 pages to outline. This semester is going to kick my ass. And as much as it's going to suck, I am truly looking forward to it. All this stress is finally making me feel normal again. I like having my time scheduled and no down time until the weekends. I don't like to have to have a lot of free time to think and be bored. Finally, my life is getting into a routine, and I think that's one thing that I've needed all summer. Speak up, dear

A night like this is begging to pull me apart [06 Sep 2005|12:13am] [ mood | confused ] I fucked up the best thing in my life right now. My best friend doesn't trust me. And I don't know what to do. This is just one more thing added to the growing list of stressors in the life of Shannon Cleary. I don't know how I am going to get through this. I'm trying one day at a time, but it just gets worse as each day passes. Ugh, I need this to be over. 3 yelled| Speak up, dear

[28 Aug 2005|11:38pm] [ mood | drained ] There is way too much going on in my head right now. I am excited to go back to school, yet I really don't want to leave this summer behind. It has been such a roller coaster summer. Some moments have made me wish I would die, probably more than I deserve to have. Others make me wish that the summer would go on forever. Mostly, I think I want to thank Brandon and Rachel for just being amazing. Those are definitely my two Mega Favorites. If it wasn't for them, I don't think I would have made it through the summer. It has just been such an emotional time. Like, almost to the point of a few Octobers ago. God, I never want to relive that. Basically I am just wasting time. Brandon and Kevin are watching Over There for the next 20 minutes or so. I have been up since 4:30 this morning, worked 8 hours, and wasn't able to nap. If I tried to watch anything right now that involved me having to be quiet I would fall asleep in a second. Tihs is bad enough. So I am just sitting here, on Brandon's computer, sipping my 151 and "Some Pulp" orange juice mix. It tastes a lot better than I thought it would. I hate the two tastes individually, but hey, at least now things are starting to not have a taste. Well, I'm gonna go talk to my sister now. She's more important than livejournal. 2 yelled| Speak up, dear

Your finger on the trigger or...? [28 Aug 2005|05:24pm] [ mood | exhausted ] I can't wait to get back to school. Thursday can't come soon enough. I am not looking forward to the packing though. Tuesday is going to be insane. Oh well, hopefully I will be motivated enough on Tuesday to get through every thing I need to get through. Speak up, dear

When the sun goes down I'll be ready to party [11 Aug 2005|11:59am] [ mood | excited ] Saturday, August 13: Hottest party of the summer! Theme: Undies Only! Get in your sexiest skivvies and let the party begin! BYOB. Beirut tournaments and plenty of fun! IM tinaXXXmelons for more details. 2 yelled| Speak up, dear

My God it's so beautiful when the boy smiles [07 Aug 2005|11:32am] [ mood | chipper ] I just had the best weekend that I can remember in forever. Friday night was amazing because my best friend is way better than yours. He is seriously the most thoughtful person ever and I am so lucky that I have a friend like that. I never thought I would meet someone like this. It's like one of those movie best friends. I'm just so lucky. Saturday I saw some of my FSC girls! Pam, Long-Hair Lauren, Danielle, and my Poopie Pie all met up at Six Flags. Of course, there were some boyfriends and brothers, but my main focus was on my girls. We had such a good time, even if I did have to drive out there all by myself. It was a great day. I love Six Flags and can't wait to go back, hopefully soon! Got my new room mate a few minutes ago. Don't plan to stay with her though. Lauren and I definitely are doing all we can to room together. I just don't want to deal with the same shit as last year. Anyway, because of my best friends I am in a great mood and the past two days have made up for the rest of my summer being bad. I love my friends. <3 1 yelled| Speak up, dear

The only thing I'll ever ask of you // You've gotta promise not to stop when I say when [05 Aug 2005|01:40pm] [ mood | confused ] Where to begin? This has been the strangest summer of my life. Not so much with events, but with my emotions. I don't know where I stand with myself anymore. I don't think anyone knows what's going on with me, really. Went camping last Friday and that turned out to be a big night. I said a lot of things I probably shouldn't have to some people I shouldn't have said them to. It was supposed to be an amazing night and a lot of fun. In reality it turned into a complete and utter nightmare that I wish I could erase from my memory. It was doomed from the beginning when plans were never definite and people kept fucking things up. The next day was good for a little while. Ed had a party and Brandon came with me. I'm really glad he did because it would have been hell with out him there. Ed let us drink. We did fireworks and were there pretty late. It was good til I got home, then I got to thinking about things and my family and all of that shit. Then I went to bed sad, but what else is new. Tuesday I slept at Brandon's because we were going to go to Six Flags the next day. Of course we drank. I got sick, and, even though I didn't have much at all, we thought it was from alcohol. Turns out I was legitimately sick and was all day Wednesday, so no Six Flags. Of course, I was sad Tuesday night. In conclusion, I think that I should just not drink anymore until I can sort out my emotions. It's easy to say that now but I'm sure I will have at least a few drinks tonight because, after all, it is Friday night and Brandon and I have drank together just about every Friday night since September/October. I don't know if I want to just deal with the chance of having a bad night or not. I guess that remains to be seen. I don't know. I just don't know about much of anything anymore. 2 yelled| Speak up, dear

Seeing you it kills me now [24 Jul 2005|02:34am] [ mood | exhausted ] Feel like shit. Gave my best friend some advice that I thought was good. Turns out I was wrong and now he's unhappy. That last thing in the world I would ever want to do is make one of my friends unhappy. 1 yelled| Speak up, dear

navigation [ viewing | most recent entries ] [ go | earlier ]